Tuesday, January 17, 2006

The 8 New Year's resolutions

2005 hasn't been the best year for me. It hasn't been the worst either. But from everything that happened in it, I will make this New Year's resolutions & hopefully will abide by them.

In this year I had been lucky enough to get closer to my two best friends Mira & Dou. We've been able to share our joy, hurt, secrets and truly enjoy each other's company. And although Dou will leave this summer I hope our friendship will be able to surpass the oceans and continents that will separate us. Also, the new project I might get into with Mira might help us get even closer & have tighter relationships with the other girls getting into the project. So
RESOLUTION#1: Assign more attention to your girlfriends

Unfortunately in the past year I have let my guard down. I trusted people I shouldn't have trusted. I gave my old distrust and fear of my new faces a rest & I was proven wrong. I've been badly hurt and I have only myself to blame. So
RESOLUTION#2: Trust no one, don't let your guard down and listen to your instincts.

Another thing that came to my attention is my health. I have let myself deteriorate last year. I didn't take enough care of myself and I think I might be having the beginnings of an eating disorder. I never liked taking medicine, including vitamins. This made me weaker and more vulnerable to illness. So
RESOLUTION#3: Eat more vegetables and fruit, take vitamins, play sport and take care of your health.

One of my many vices is daydreaming. I sometimes spend hours, mixing it sometimes with planning and strategizing. In the beginning I tried to stop because everything I daydreamed about would happen in real life it's complete opposite. Then everything I daydreamed about happened exactly. In both cases it was completely disastrous. So
RESOLUTION#4: Stop daydreaming; put your feet on the ground and your head out of the clouds.

Moody, that's how many people describe. It's not entirely my fault. I'm a Libra. I swing from good to bad, happy to sad sometimes uncontrollably. But yesterday I realized how bad it really is. Bassem said that he feared that someday I would wake up in a bad mood and decide to end things. No cause, just due to the fact that I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. "Holly shit", that was my reaction, am I THAT bad? I know I'm not legally insane. Not yet anyway. But these severe mood swings have to go. So does anyone know a 12 step program? Coz:
RESOLUTION#5: Stop severe mood swings.

Family. I'm not a family person. And I'm not talking about the cousins of cousins of cousins. I'm talking about my immediate family. My relationship with my father is cold, messy and has too many unresolved issues. I adore my mum but we rarely see each other and when we do, it's usually all "fun and games". If we ever talk seriously we usually end up irritate each other. My aunts, uncles and cousins are mostly busy most of the time, but a telephone call to tell them hello every once and a while won't kill me, right? So
RESOLUTION#6: Better ties with the family.

It's been a long time since I pampered myself. I can't even remember when I last had some good me time, where I can read a good book, see a nice movie or just treat myself by switching off my head, my phone and only worry about which color of nail polish will better suit my tan. So
RESOLUTION#7: More ME time.

Monday, January 02, 2006

New Year Prayer

This prayer was sent to me by a dear friend, hope you like it as I did

Grant me the strength from day to day
To bear what burdens come my way.
Grant me throughout this bright New Year
More to endure and less to fear.
Help me live that I may be
From spite and petty malice free.

Let me not bitterly complain
When cherished hopes of mine prove vain,
Or spoil with deeds of hate and rage
Some fair tomorrow's spotless page.
Lord, as the days shall come and go
In courage let me stronger grow.


Lord, as the New Year dawns today
Help me to put my faults away.
Let me be big in little things;
Grant me the joy which friendship brings.
Keep me from selfishness and spite;
Let me be wise in what is right.

A happy New Year! Grant that I
May bring no tear to any eye.
When this New Year in time shall end
Let it be said I've played the friend,
Have lived and loved and labored here,
And made of it a happy year.

Edgar A. Guest

My Rose Color

You are a Dark Red Rose

You represent unconscious beauty and deep passion.

Your vibe: sophisticated and worldly

Falling in love with you is: wildly carnal and forbidden

Wives vs. Husbands

Got this as a mail forward, it's really funny, enjoy:

A couple drove down a country road for several miles, not saying a
word. An earlier discussion had led to an argument and neither of
them wanted to concede their position. As they passed a barnyard of
mules, goats, and pigs, the husband asked sarcastically, "Relatives
of yours?"
Yep," the wife replied,

A husband read an article to his wife about how many words women
use a day... 30,000 to a man's 15,000. The wife replied, "The
reason has to be because we have to repeat everything to men...
The husband then turned to his wife and asked, "What?"

A man said to his wife one day, "I don't know how you can be so
stupid and so beautiful all at the same time. " The wife responded,
"Allow me to explain. God made me beautiful so you would be
attracted to me; God made me stupid so I would be attracted to

A man and his
wife were having some problems at home and were
giving each other the silent treatment. Suddenly, the man realized
that the next day,he would need his wife to wake him at 5:00 AM for
an early business flight. Not wanting to be the first to break the
silence (and LOSE), he
wrote on a piece of paper, "Please wake me at 5:00 AM." He left it
where he knew she would find it. The next morning, the man woke up,
only to discover it was 9:00 and he had missed his flight. Furious,
he was about to go and see why his wife hadn't wakened him, when he
noticed a piece of paper by the bed. The paper said, It is 5:00 AM.
Wake up."

Men are not equipped for these kinds of contests. God may have
man before woman, but there is always a rough draft before
the masterpiece.

Down with the flu, down with exams among other things

Flu, exams and missunderstanding.
These were my new year celebrations.

I had an exam on the 1st of January at 8:30 am while having the worst and weirdest flu ever.

The flu is over now (weird like I said). Did well in the exam thank God, although I didn't expect to.

I'm a bit tired, exhausted and drained, wish I could go away for just a couple of days to recharge, someplace quiet, with him...

I miss you my love, although I see you everyday, talk to you almost every 2 hors I still miss you.