Monday, November 28, 2005

Will You Marry me?

Your Ideal Marriage Proposal Is

After dinner at your favorite restaurant, at the spot where you first kissed.

One of my favourite topics to talk about with a particular friend is the marriage proposal. Of course from what we see in the movies we had a hopless romantic point of view.
She wanted him to write "will you marry me" with flowers, and then be taken on board of a plane to see it from above....
Mine was... a bit more realistic, in my opinion the most romantic wedding proposal was the one Richard Gere said to Julia Roberts in Runaway Bride.

I want him to kneel, hold my hand look me in the eye and say: "Look, I guarantee there'll be tough times. I guarantee that at some point, one or both of us is gonna want to get out of this thing. But I also guarantee that if I don't ask you to be mine, I'll regret it for the rest of my life, because I know, in my heart, you're the only one for me."


Friday, November 18, 2005

Mid terms

For the last week I was in a continuous nightmare. MID TERMS. They're the exams that come suddenly, just as you start to get used to this year's system. It changes. The exams are here.

You find yourself having to study at least five subjects in one week, four of them you know nothing about and one you know the main titles. You try to get any information about any subject lectures, sheets, revision,... anything to prevent a BIG FAT F.

This year our lovely administration changed the system of mid terms.
In previous years there was a week for mid terms where lectures were stopped and the entire faculty has exams. This system was fairly good because it gave us the chance to study without worrying about attending lectures, sections or handing in reports and sheets.

But hey a system that ACTUALLY works for the students is EVIL.

They decided that there will be no mid term week and that every professor will decide when the exam for his subject will be. Claiming that this new system will give us a bigger space between exams than just one week.

So, did this "new system" work?

Nope, it failed miserably. I had 4 subjects in one week, a quiz in a section in the middle and they subjects were spaced very idiotically.
I had one on Friday, the following on Sunday ( so far not bad) then a stupid gap, a quiz on Wednesday an exam Thursday afternoon (ended 6 pm) and the last one Friday morning (started at 8 am).

I slept yesterday at around 2 am, woke up at 6:30. Did very poorly in the exam (Rabena yostor) returned, slept, slept and then slept some more. Now I have to sit and study (again). Yeah YUK but I have a quiz tomorrow and tons of things to hand in. And I honestly can't stand to look at any piece of paper at the moment

These people have no mercy.

I need a vacation.

Saturday, November 12, 2005

The Reason

I liked this song from the first time I've heard it. But I never felt the strength of its lyrics like I do now. Thanks for giving me "my reason".

The Reason

I'm not a perfect person
as many things I wish I didn't do
but I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
and so I have to say before I go
that I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
to change who I used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
it's something I must live with everyday
and all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
and be the one who catches all your tears
that's why I need you to hear

I've found a resaon for me
to change who I used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you
and the reason is you
and the reason is you
and the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
and so I have to say before I go
that I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
to change who I used to be
a reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
a side of me you didn't know
a reason for all that I do
and the reason is you

Hoobastank, The Reason

Monday, November 07, 2005

My element

Your Element is Fire

Your power color: red

Your energy: hot

Your season: spring

Like a fire, you are full of power and light.
A born leader, you easily draw people toward you.
You are full of courage and usually up for anything dangerous.
You have a huge ego and love to be the center of attention.

A new arrival

Saturday my family welcomed its newest member, a beautiful chubby baby girl.
Her mother is "formally" my cousin but in reality she's more like my sister.
I remember we used to sit in the balcony of my house singing, playing, joking and laughing our hearts.
She got married when I was 16; got her first child when I was 18 and now her second baby has arrived to this world.

I have to admit that this was the first time I've ever witnessed childbirth. I was scared, confused, and happy and had no idea what to do or say.
Natural delivery was ruled out after several complications and a c section had to be preformed. I was the first one to the see the baby. She was so red, she was crying her heart out and she had the most adorable cheeks, she was 3 minutes old when I saw her.

I saw her first bath, her first diaper and her first outfit.
Thank God her mom was alright. She was in severe pain and frankly I couldn't take it.
I couldn't handle seeing my sister is such pain while knowing I can't do anything to make it better. I told my mom I'm leaving and went home.

I have witnessed a miracle on Saturday, but what amazed me the most is the sudden rush of love I felt toward her the moment I laid my eyes on her. Amaizing.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

No Subject

To my Bisou

In all my life I never felt
Like this
My heart is like butter
The warmth of your embrace makes it melt
My soul is like sugar
Disappearing with your kiss
How did you change my world
How did you turn me upside down
I'll never know or ever understand
How can the touch of your hand
Make me feel like a queen
Make me feel I'm in a dream
I'm afraid of waking up
And not finding you here
My heart orders me to stop
Assuring me you'll always be near
Ordering me to make my life
Dedicated to your happiness
That I will
Till my dying breath I will

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Important announcememt

Like a ray of sunshine in a chilling winter morning, he brought a sudden feeling of warmth into my life. He cares for me, protects me, he holds me like I'm made of fragile glass, delicately, gently…..

He sneaked into my world and alternated it. I trust him like I never trusted anyone before, I open up to him and let him into my mysterious world that only a few had the honor of entering. He didn't run away, he still calls me his baby.

When he's not around and I start thinking of him I suddenly feel butterflies in my stomach, I smell his scent, and almost feel his breath on my face.
If I see him hurting my soul is ripped apart and when I see him happy every cell is jumping of joy.

With everything said and everything felt I can safely declare that "I love him".
Yes I did say the L word, and I will say it again.

I love you.