Friday, August 26, 2005

At your request

This is originally haal's post but I like the idea so I'm going to give it a shot.

Three names you go by:
-Natalie (recently)

Three screen names you have had:

Three parts of your heritage

Three things that you don't like:
-People who talk about what they don't know (elfaty)

Three of your everyday essentials:
-Morning cup of coffee
-Watching a TV show (at least)

Three things you are wearing right now:
-Silver anklet
-My favorite white gold necklace

Two truths and a lie:
-I am lazy
-I get mad easily
-I like loud parties

Three non-physical things about the opposite sex that appeal to you:
-Having a goal and going for it

Three physical things about the opposite sex that appeal to you:
-Smart eyes
-Neat clothes that suit the occasion

Three things you just can’t do:
-Do drugs
-Desert a friend
-Stop thinking

Three of your favorite hobbies
-Taking long walks

Three things you want to do really badly right now
-Be with myfavoritee aunt
-Go to Vienna

Three places you want to go on vacation
-New York

Three things you want to do before you die
-Be a mom
-Make a difference in a Man's life
-Understand myself

Three ways I am stereotypically a woman
-I spend too much on my looks
-I like gossip
-I blush at compliments

Back from vacation

Last week I went on vacation. A much needed vacation.
I went with my family to a resort on the red sea.
And it was like a piece of Heaven. The weather was perfect, nice breeze with no humidity. I was lazy all day, go to the beach in the afternoon and after a nice bath being lazy again infront of the TV.

I was pampered and spoiled by the entire family. I washed the dishes twice maybe just as a sign of good will, but other than that I didn't lift a finger.

It made me wonder about the mess I was in earlier. And I made a decision. I will put aside all the problems that were causing me trouble in the past few months. They were mainly caused by my fear of the future. What the hell will I do when I finish college. I'm a lousy engineer so I won't do that, but I have to find something that I like an want to do and start figuring out how. What courses should I take, where should I do my training, etc...
All of this caused me great discomfort. So on my holiday I reached a conclusion. I won't think about long term plans, I will rather have a short term plan where I will put all my energy in it. If it succeeds maybe my long term plans will be fixed by themselves.

Wish me luck

Saturday, August 13, 2005

Last Week

Last week is the living example to the fact that I'm a completely insane person.

Last Friday was an only girls get together. I didn't want to go at the beginning. They're my friends, but not so close and I, most of the time, have to put a fake smile on . But because I had nothing better to do I went. And surprise surprise, I ACTUALLY had fun.
It was one of the best get togethers I ever went to. We talked about everything; politics,guys,kids,sex,... It was actually the first time that we had a real conversation. In the end I hated leaving.

Saturday I had a meeting. We will be doing a conference at the University and I'm in the Organising Committee. It was so excited. I'm surrounded by young, driven, ambitious people. I should be very happy, but I'm not. Something is missing. You see? I'm crazy I sit around hoping for something interesting to do and when it comes my way I suddenly find something missing.

I think I'm waiting for something to happen, something on a more personal level. And I'm really pissed off that it's not happening.
I'm fighting with my dad all the time now, all my friends are on vacations outside Egypt (I have rich friends :) ) and I'm a bit alone. Busy with a million things but alone. And I don't like it.

My best friend is getting married next summer. After the wedding she's leaving for Canada. I don't know if I'm jelous because she found such a wonderfull guy and all the guys I knew are total psychos or because I'll miss her alot. She's been my friend for more that 16 years now and I can't imagine not being able to call her anytime morning or night just to talk.

Ahhhhhhh, stop wining.
I'll be ok soon,... I guess,... I hope.... I dunno...

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

I don't miss you

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate it, I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it that you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

From the movie "10 things I hate about you"


Finally something nice on the news.
A change from all the killing, explosions and just yuky stuff.
A miracle in my opinion.

I'm talking about the Air France crash.
All 309 passengers and crew safe. It was done thanks to the very professional evacuation by the canadian forces.

Go Canada.

Not just mountain rangers,eih?

Monday, August 01, 2005

Ex boyfriends

Having to deal with an ex is heavy on my heart. Especially when I'm the one who said goodbye.
I hate oversensitivity and trying to respect his feelings.

AHH. Like M. he was sweetheart, still is. But the relation went belly up for many reasons. And it took me ages to tell him it's over and gae him the "let's be friends speech". The problem is, he believd it. He thinks I'm gonna call him asking him about his day and chitchatting on the phone for hours like we used to.
And it's a little bit hard to tell him that I gave him this speech only because we're gonna be face to face for the next 2 years We go to the same university, same department, same friends, same everything.

The thing that made me mad at him is his attitude during the time of the results.
I found him calling me one day and telling me that he's passed, that he's been able to know it from the university before it's being published. Go to hell. I don't give a rat's ass about what you've done, I wanna know what I've done. This just made me........ARGGGGGGGGGGG. I wasn't sleeping or eating and on the verge of tears everytime I think of this subject, but he didn't respect any of this. Even the way he phrased this statement was irritating.
And then he started bragging about he got a higher grade in a certain subject.
I loved this subject, understood it perfectly and done the exams amaizingly, but got a bad grade which made me sad and dissapointed.
M. on the other hand made a fatal mistake in the final. But got a better grade and he rubbed it in my face.
I hated it and till now I'm too angry to talk to him.

I think I'm gonna take a break from guys and boyfriends and just enjoy my freedom.

Do you think I should call him and say what's bothering me? Walla tanash?

bilady bilady bilady...

I HATE that national anthem. It is stupid, boring and like a children song.
Maybe the words are nice but the music irritates me. Since childhood I disliked the anthem, the flag and the minister of education. I decided to do a coup d'etat and change these three things and then leave power. I was 9 years old.

I always thought that the famous march in Opera Aida would be a better replacement. Some cheesy words can be put on it but without changing the greatness of the march. Come on it's called "Gloire l'Egypte", can there be a better name for a national anthem?

Democracy a la egyptienne

In Mobarak's speech in which he announced his candidacy for a FIFTH term as president of Egypt he promised to change the emergency law to a special terrorism one.


Come on. Does he think he is talking to a bunch of drewling idiots who wet themselves occasionly? He has been operating under the Emergency Law for 24 years. Moslty under pretence to fight terrorism and drugs. And throughout those 24 years Egypt experienced all its terrorists act. They only ended after 1997 when a group of tourists-mostly swiss and japanese-were killed in Luxor.

Everybody knows that the emergency law is applied to the opposition of the Mubarak regime. Thousands of egyptians are imprisoned mostly with no charges or trials. Police officers have the authority to arrest anyone for no reason what so ever.
It was written in some news paper that a mosque cleric was arrested for not praying (yed3y)for Mubarak after the friday prayers.

And yet he has the nerves to talk about democracy to talk about the precence of real presidantial elections.
Yesterday there was a demonstration in Tahrir square protesting Mubarak's candidacy. They were beaten, dragged and arrested. Some of them were journalists, university professors and even one of the founders of the Kifaya mouvement.

I also saw Wolf Blitzer interviewing Ahmad Nazif our prime minister on CNN today. He wasn't cornred enough, Wolf was quite nice with him, asked him one question about the elections and that was it. I wonder why. Wolf blitzer used to corner Egyptian and arab officials who were on his show. Why the change of strategy?